The wider path

It was five o'clock in the evening, I had worked overtime--AGAIN! I just can't say no to these students, why did I assign that 12 page paper in the middle of the semester again? Please remind me... Can't wait to head home, good thing I traded in my old Porsche for the midnight black Ferrari; driving in it makes everything an event. I hope Ishani did her homework, you know how kids are with there homework. No homework no spa week...I told her that. I plan to go home and cook a huge meal but my kitchen is so huge walking from the fridge to the marble table to the stove tires me. maybe I'll just ask my husband to cook while I soak in our "B" shaped Jacuzzi... or take the elevator upstairs and go shopping. Just a regular day.

I can't believe it... pregnant again! this isn't what I expected. Cliché' but true, I am glad I have all this space and education but this is a shocker! How am I going to fit these doctor appointments in with my five day teaching schedule. God will help me figure something out, my daughter seems happy she's young and excited about the baby. My husband had the same face I did, but he says the more the merrier...men. My body is shifting and I am chubby in all the wrong places, so much for my essence magazine photo-shoot. I'm going to have to reschedule, they will understand. My daughter is so used to getting all my time I hope she adapts well. I had one of my many doctor appointments to find out I am having not one but two! When the doctor told me I almost fainted--two?! two cribs, two more beds, two sets of clothes, two alibis. I was so nervous I haven't dealt with a baby in years now that Ishani is a such a big girl now. I'll manage like I always do just a little sidetracked--new beginnings again.

It has been two years and I am in pure bliss, my job completely understood and said with all the extra time I have dedicated to the students they would be supportive of me through it all. my daughter was a little jealous at first until my husband and I got her to understand mommy and daddy has love for them both. She won't leave those poor babies alone, she is super sister--she changes their diaper, feeds them, plays with them. I had twin girls--yes more estrogen in the house; Auna and Lana the dynamic duo twins. So this yes I didn't plan this part of my life and other parts but I was blessed and it all came out perfectly fine.

Life

Precious and so innocent the heart can be
The mind says one thing and the heart says another.
We are left wondering which feeling to follow those
of the heart or those of the mind.
I chose to follow my mind and my heart and I
wonder to this day...
What would have been had I not been scared and
followed my heart instead of my mind.
Truth be told maybe I am better off not knowing.

To just follow ones intuition and dreams
May the sun always shines in your heart - melt away winter's ice
   Always looking for beautiful colors - even if you never find the rainbow
Nobody wants to experience the towering and storm high waves
   Adversity makes us strong - like sailing on the sea in storm
   Open up your heart - take a deep breath
   Dreams you will find among the stars - where peace prevails
   Let your thoughts dance between the clouds - without a worry in mind
   Bring your paint brush - paint the world in stunning colors
   Our world is so endlessly large
   A human so little, a love so great