Alchemy

On December 20th, 2013 my grandmother's sun had set. It was a shock to the family, we had gotten a call that she had a heart attack and the hospital was trying to revive her and they succeeded. At her old age anything detrimental to her health could easily be her downfall. I remember being in my sister's living room when my mom got the call from the doctors, from the expression and tears on  my mothers face it seemed as though he told her that my grandmother wasn't going to make it...and she didn't. I couldn't believe it for two months, after those two months and the huge break-up with my first love reality sunk in.

I was so angry, depressed and sad I didn't know what to feel or where to go. All I could think about was seeing her one last time, or how I could of seen her more often. But what I failed to realize was that no heart attack or ill health determined the fate of my grandmothers life...only God did. I could have seen her everyday but that would not change His plans and that has been accepted. After all I dealt with I found myself becoming closer to my family and God. It helped me a great deal. Although the thoughts of her are fresh and it still hurts I know now she is happier than ever--she is home.

Although my grandmother was physically gone, her morals, ideas, culture and tradition forever remains and I couldn't be happier. Yes it is sad but all the life lessons and knowledge she left with us makes us feel like she never left. I learned that in life things don't happen the way you expect them too but does that mean they shouldn't be? We could all look to the sky and scream why but we should really scream why not. It took the death of the most wonderful woman for a strong to see what she gave us that death could never take away: love, perseverance and family. I have grown to understand that and I have my grandmother, my family and God to thank.



Alchemy

the components of matter
so what matters to you?
Alchemy is science, building, atoms and chemicals
what makes up the world and we...
we are just people, not atoms....are we matter?
well we, we matter
Alchemy is forming something from one form to another I suppose
like you and I, we are the true definitions of Alchemy
your minds, bodies and souls are Alchemy
constantly trying to change who we were to someone we want to be or change or minds to think thoughts we want to think
Alchemy can be changing silver to gold, old to new, cheap to valuable
Who is the Alchemist?
the very "who" who wants a better chance at life? a better life? the reason is unclear
some use science to improve or run from
be that as it may, know that no metal can be two
only one metal, only one you
your form is your identification, your keepsake. whether it mental or physical
so know when you are changing you
your changing what matters, if that matters to you