Every day to me is a normal day, either I am working, sleeping, shopping, doing school work or with my boyfriend. Pretty simple and often pretty cliché'. However the past few days have been fairly interesting, I have been thinking deeply about my religion and what it requires of me. I don't know if you know much about Christianity, if you do know an ounce about it you know that you should promote all things good and remove all things that are bad. partying and things like that should be stopped and I'm just like uhh... I am trying to adapt because I know its for a great cause. Its all a learning experience so I am trying to improve my self so I am pretty proud.
My sister's birthday... well the family get together to celebrate her birthday was the first and it was AWESOME! I helped her prepare for it most of the day...I find myself helping people in need. I had a horrific headache and was so tired by the time the party actually started but I just pushed through it. It turned out great and she was very happy as well as everyone else and so was I. I saw my boyfriend and we talked and argued occasionally then talked and laughed... again a normal day. That night was one to remember. I know that when I have my 31st birthday I want to do it differently, for starters I don't want a Mardi Gras them; I never really understood the history behind Mardi Gras guess its the colors and beads that grab everyone, I'll never know.
4I love my job and all and the hours are so flexible but I think it is time for a new one. I have been thinking about working full time and I have heard people say no because I am in school but the things I want in this world require money that I just don't have. I want to move out and model soon, now whether or not I should is a different story but I know I can't do it at the job I am at. For now I am working on school and maybe in the summer I will assess the amount of school work I can't manage and that will determine whether or not I should get a new job.
When I stop, I notice...
When I stop, I notice that when you live for yesterday your past is your present but when you live for today your present is key
he who lives for today has no worries
even though is seems hard to let go of yesterday or if you have no idea what today holds be positive and go forward
never get to wrapped up
In what happened then what about now?
any and every day matters, yes it all
matters however dwelling on who you were determines who you will become
I have come to realize every moment counts in a moment I decided to model, in a moment I decided to
never run from destiny and face what needs to be faced
to look ahead and put my best foot forward... or at least try so what
helps you look ahead in
even the worst case scenarios
many of us live based on expectations, experiences or fears
others live based on dreams, desires and hopes
me? I am one of those people I live based on my dreams
even if some may think they are far reached, your dreams are
never too far if you have
true determination with in you
I always hope to live the life that I was destined to live I
realized that....
Bianca,
ReplyDeleteGreat post! Very good, honest free write. It feels good to get that stuff out sometimes... it's like a quick journal exercise that let's you re-live these key, little moments.
Excellent writing, as always. Keep it up.
And your poem is full of flow - very stream of consciousness in style, as if we're reading your thoughts as they come, one line at a time. Very cool. I like this style of writing, because is leads us into sub conscious thoughts that never come out, unless exercised like this. These provide those "aha" moments and give us a sense of the thoughts that have been lingering, but we haven't paid much attention to. They tend not to go away.
Excellent work. High quality.
GR: 97